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I have been debating over a new laptop vs a new camera lately.

To be honest, both are working ok but both have their flaws and both 'may kulang' but not naman to a life or death need. I have a PowerBook G4 which works fine, but I feel like i need a webcam for skype when i leave in July. My Canon Ixus 700 is all scratched up, but just isn't too great for shooting gigs (which i hope to be covering a lot of when i am back in Europe).

I am so awful at maintaining gadgets and the state of each of these are quite horrendous, which therefore does not include the option of reselling any of them. (Believe me, no one would buy!) And my being crap at keeping things nice, tidy and scratch free also hinders me from buying new updated models.

So what do you think? Should i buy a jologs USB webcam and a 320GB hard drive and then just get a new camera (looks like the Lumix LX3 as far as recommendations go) ? Or should i get a friend's old MacBook and not buy a new camera?

Ugh how confusing!! Someone help me decide!!

candycolouredkisses: is star trek the one with the alien yoda
upstart29: nope. that's star wars.
candycolouredkisses: IS star trek the one with the gray body suits??
upstart29: eh?
upstart29: maybe.
candycolouredkisses: and the guy with funny ears and hair na flat
upstart29: though there's different colors too.
upstart29: yes, pointy ears.
candycolouredkisses: AHA! i know star trek!!!

candycolouredkisses: ANDITO NANAMAN SI BRANGELINAAAAA
candycolouredkisses: we have to stalk theeem
garovs: PA ADOPT TAYO?!??!
garovs: bwahahhahahahahhahahahhahahahhhaa
garovs: HWERE NAMAN!??!
garovs: TOTOO BA YAN
garovs: kala ko ba si MADONNA ANG DARATING
candycolouredkisses: andito sila ulit
candycolouredkisses: TATAMBAY AKO SA MAKATI SHANG TOMMMMMMM
candycolouredkisses: lol
garovs: ANO
garovs: ang gagawin mo
garovs: PAG
garovs: nakatabi mo
garovs: si
garovs: BRAD PITT
candycolouredkisses: OMG
candycolouredkisses: didilaan ko SHA
garovs: ANO?!?!??!
garovs: BAHAHAHAA
garovs: hindi hindi
garovs: as in
candycolouredkisses: as in
garovs: SERIOUSLYYY
garovs: ANO GAGAWIN MO?!?
candycolouredkisses: kahit di ko sha makausap
candycolouredkisses: didiliaan ko sha
garovs: ako siguro tititig nang nakasuper smile lang
candycolouredkisses: picture tapos dila
garovs: TAPOS HUHULIN KA NG PULIS
garovs: HAHAHA
candycolouredkisses: hahahahaOK YUN
candycolouredkisses: news worthy!!!!
candycolouredkisses: sikat ako
garovs: WORTh it ba makulong para dun!!!!
garovs: HAHAHAHHAA
candycolouredkisses: parang helium club
candycolouredkisses: OO NAMAN NO
candycolouredkisses: natikman ko naman si brad pitt!
garovs: MICH DULCE: kinulong sa bilanggo, dahil si BRAD PITT dinilaan sa mukha. ANGELINA kinagat ang mukha ng nilalang na MICH DULCE
garovs: =))

upstart29: anything happening tonight?
candycolouredkisses: we are playing in bigsky
candycolouredkisses: tonight
upstart29: what time?
upstart29: who else is playing?
candycolouredkisses: kjawn
candycolouredkisses: ay
candycolouredkisses: pano ba spelling nun
candycolouredkisses: hahahaha
candycolouredkisses: jwajn
candycolouredkisses: AHAHAHAA
candycolouredkisses: kwan
candycolouredkisses: AJAJAJAJAJAJAJAHAHA
candycolouredkisses: i cant spell it
upstart29: HAHAHAHA
upstart29: kYAWN
candycolouredkisses: kwajn
candycolouredkisses: pano ba talaga
upstart29: still wrong!
upstart29: hahahahaha
candycolouredkisses: KIJAWN
upstart29: =))
candycolouredkisses: KWAJN
candycolouredkisses: KWAAN
candycolouredkisses: maybe im dyslexic
upstart29: LOL
upstart29: BWAHAHAHAHA
candycolouredkisses: i really dont know how
candycolouredkisses: KJAWN
candycolouredkisses: QUAN
candycolouredkisses: alam ko may k may j
candycolouredkisses: di ba
upstart29: yes hahahahaha
upstart29: but you still haven't gotten it.
candycolouredkisses: KJAWN talaga eh
upstart29: keep trying!
candycolouredkisses: yung pinaka logical
upstart29: BWAHAHa
candycolouredkisses: wait
candycolouredkisses: man i even tried to google it kaso i can spell it well enough for google to know what it is
candycolouredkisses: Kwahkn
candycolouredkisses: kwajn
candycolouredkisses: I HATE IT
upstart29: kwahkn's the best.
candycolouredkisses: maliligo na ako
candycolouredkisses: KJWAN
candycolouredkisses: yun na ba?
upstart29: finally!
upstart29: hahahahaha
candycolouredkisses: or KUJWAN
upstart29: or kwajn
candycolouredkisses: HUY
candycolouredkisses: ano yung tutuo??
candycolouredkisses: KUHUJN
upstart29: you got it na!
candycolouredkisses: KJWAN?!?!?!
upstart29: that's the drummer.
upstart29: yup.
candycolouredkisses: WHO THE HELL MAKES A NAME SO HARD TO SPELL

I am pooped!
And i miss Plurk!
Why is it so crap?

Last day of Rockwell Bazaar tomorrow! Please come and visit , will be there from 10 am to 9 pm.

xx

Everyday since Francis M passed i find myself re reading both his blogs over and over again at night.

He seems like such a wonderful person, i wish i had known him.

I wish i could end up with someone who was as great with his kids as Francis M was. I pray for it every night, as cheesy and pathetic as it sounds.

What is up with the state i am in now noh. Its not just me, its most of my single friends.

I've never been so baby obsessed in my life. I mean i always kind of was but now its like this all time high, its almost a trend amongst me and my friends. Where we daydream about getting married and settling down. Where me and Debrah lay on the beach and wished on shooting stars to get married within 3 years, then 2 years, then one year.

Its called getting old i suppose.

In London Debrah asked her priest what she should do if she wanted a husband when she went to confession. He told her to say 4 rosaries a day to pray for a husband. I think she still does it, and she prays for me too. I pray for her to find a guy who deserves her every night and so does Teresa.

This is so pathetic na noh? All you married people, you don't know how lucky you are. And all of you who aren't married yet but are happy with whoever they are with, what are you waiting for? Its time to make babies! I wish i could.

I'm home sick today.

I've been getting sick almost every other week. and its not just a cold.

On days like these I worry.
And for some reason whenever I am sick things get rocky at home. My mom has a funny and painful way of dealing with stress, by adding more to it.

I am sick and I am suddenly very sad.

It hasn't been this way for a while.

Please pray for me.

hello lj. I've missed you.

Was really shocked to find everyone's status messages this morning. I'm so sad about francis m. Prayers to ate pia, maxene , Saab and the rest of the family and all his friends.

I don't have a big francis M story to share, i never knew him though he hung out with the cool kids who i wanted to be when i grew up when i was in college. (and yes he is one of my all time crushes, though you must have known me a while to know that) Yet i feel strangely affected by his passing. Its so sad when someone so talented and young passes away, especially when he had to face something so difficult but still managed to be strong through it all.

as I've gotten older i feel like its harder to accept death. Ivan's passing was one of the most painful. I wish I could revert to seeing death like the way I did as a child, a better place with angels and all. in a way I am actually grateful that my dad passed away when I was 5 and I saw death so positively. If it happened today i don't think i could deal with it.

candycolouredkisses: DAMN QUARK
candycolouredkisses: he always makes nice year end posts that make mine look like uu
candycolouredkisses: FUCKER
upstart29: where's your year-end post?
candycolouredkisses: im still writing it but now i cant continue
upstart29: don't be so conscious dude.
upstart29: whatever you write, only you can write.
upstart29: no one else had the same experiences you had naman this year.

So thanks to Ramon, you are now reading my second rate trying hard year ender.

Most of my friends seemed to have a really great 2008 and I decided to think about why mine was less than thrilling or uneventful.

What did happen to me in 2008?

A brand new band with 4 boys who i absolutely adore and love. Even if they always want to replace me with hotter chicks.

The British intern invasion. Having 2 Brit girls (one with a Sexy Accent and a fake one with a Pinoy accent lol) living with you can really make an impact on your year.

McDonalds and Jollibee opening on our street. It sounds sick and totally fat to admit it but all of my interns know how absolutely amazing this is.

Gossip Girl. Technically began in late 2007 but really hit us in 2008. The show that shaped and moulded my evil plots, and gave Marian some really bad bruises.

The HK invasion. Lines of taxis and "Yo image is so cool!!" & "Ako pinaka malaki titi sa buong HK"

Chowking nights. Cheesy songs, harmonizing, and major separation anxiety.

NFC. Which i believe began with the MOMOL pact made in Magnet katipunan. Insanity. This, Quark, should have been part of your 15 as it was so life changing for you it has even become significant to me!

CC & Rico's wedding, that made all the girls cry, and proved that Diego Mapa was the best Best Man ever.

Bjork in Shanghai, one of the most amazing nights of my life ever.

Store For All Seasons closing. One of the downsides of the year as it was something i had taken for granted for ages and suddenly it was gone.

Pepper Lunch. For more cravings!

Making up with my bestest friend ever after months of not speaking.

Meeting three of my ultimate idols of all time - Dita Von Teese (thank you Quark), Vivienne Westwood (again) and Stephen Jones - not to mention Viktor & Rolf and Diane Pernet, two equally significant influences, and the later even interviewed me and can be viewed here (hahaha, plugging!)

Building the SS 2009 collection. Between sleepless nights of silkscreening, pattern maker hunting, DHL, look book shoots, numerous fights, screaming and tears, there were overtime sleepovers, laughing crazily from exhaustion, and good times with a team of friends i love to bits.

My first show abroad in Bali which turned out to be less than great but had an amazing time reuniting with Marjan & Sasha, and slutting it out in Bounty with Kitty and Jella.

Eraserheads Reunion.

Wincy Ong. Who entertained all of us so much throughout the year he deserves a section of his own.

Finally went back to London. Trashed the Eastwood pad once again, reunited with old friends, made new amazing ones, and had the best time in a long time. MOMOL & MOMOX. Woke up to Electric Feel each morning, finally saw Vampire Weekend <3 (Thanks Ellie) amongst others, saw Lia and showed her my London <3, missing fireworks yet again and a revived interest for speaking Filipino in another country with people you never really spoke Filipino with in the Philippines - jologs, japorms, and ZZZZInnnoo Zhaaaa?

Becoming addicted to tea with milk and two sugars!! I blame beccy.

Mixing work and leisure in Europe. Fashion Weeks, Rendez Vous, those damn classes in Lewisham, my first Kokon to Zai press day.

"Put eet in your mouth" - The ultimate Paris dating experience. "So? What eess wrong?"

Discovering horchata in Barcelona. OMG.

D and Tea coming to see me in Paris. MOMOOTS! Possibly one of my best weekends ever.

Losing Ivan. I know you're in a far better place now, but not a day goes by that I don't think of you. <3

Girl crushing. Hard core.

Krumping, karaeoke in the car, and Cafe Adriatico.

And realizing that I have some truly amazing friends and how completely lucky i am to have them <3

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Not as uneventful as I thought it was, nor as well written as Q's post, but I know 2009 is going to be so much better and i hope every single one of you from 2008 will be part of the year to come :) (minus Mr. Put Eet in Your Mouth).

Love you xx

It was just you and me in the back seat of my car.

[IMG]http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v123/sugarcandyop/P1010719.jpg[/IMG]

ok, fine. so maybe rin was there too.

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lol.

Happy birthday, lara love xxx

reading old entries on LJ, i came across an old YM conversation, the funniest line being:

eggy_tioseco: my apologies tita

omg that was too freakin funny. do you remember, ramon and chris?

in case you need to refresh your memory:
http://sugarcandypop.livejournal.com/34763.html

too funny!

Do you remember when our LJ's weren't just plugs and we actually had time to update several times a day (and really wanted to and itched to go home and go on the computer)? And we'd keep track of how many comments we would have, and Quark would always have these entries with a hundred comments, beating my Jolina entries. When LJ wars were common, and when you'd see your friends for beers on a Wednesday afternoon, all the conversations began with "Did you read her post?" or, "o, did you post it na?". I miss it. So I decided to write again.

Lately i've been finding myself reminiscing about 'those days when we were young'. Not that I'm that old. I feel older though. I've changed in so many ways, want different things, look for different traits. There are things I think now I can see which I didn't see before. Things that I used to obsess and cry over are just dumb things not worth wasting time on. Stuff that used to hurt me just seems trivial and small. People I wanted to impress and please just no longer seem worth making the effort for, and the realization that people i've neglected are the ones who I need to make time for. And then there is all this fear of catching up on things that I realized I should have done before, but was too distracted to do, or realizing that this is it, this is the time that you have to make your dreams come true.

It seems that everyone around me is going through something. Couples breaking up, people getting married, friends suddenly dating "friends" you just can't stand seeing them with, new found confidence, personal tragedies, new loves, sexual peaks, experimentation, changes in sexual orientations, re-locations, life decisions, rediscovering selves.

What is this? Who are we and what are we becoming? What the hell is happening?

I don't know what it is. Quarter life crisis? Maybe. I just know that it scares the living shit out of me, and i don't really know if the person that I am is someone i want to be, or worse that I live behind the shadow of someone I pretend to be because I don't really want anyone to know who I am really or what I'm thinking, or maybe I don't know who I am beyond fronts anymore.

It always reassuring to look back at the past. And most reassuring that despite all the things that have changed and all the things that are happening, the friends who helped you deal with the problems you thought were your life obstacles then are still around years later to laugh at those stages in your life when you now realize they were stupid. It kind of assures you that maybe someday you'll look back at these things going on now and laugh about them too. And then maybe post it on LJ. :)

Manifesto Marathon, the third in the Serpentine Gallery’s acclaimed series of Marathon events, takes place in the closing weekend of the Serpentine Gallery Pavilion 2008, designed by Frank Gehry. Manifesto Marathon comes at a time when artists are working less in formal groups and defined artistic movements. The Marathon showcases a new generation of artists alongside practitioners from the worlds of literature, design, science, philosophy, music and film who are returning to the historical notion of the manifesto. The Manifesto Marathon draws on the Serpentine Gallery’s close proximity to Speakers’ Corner in Hyde Park, which has been used as a platform by Karl Marx, Vladimir Lenin, George Orwell and William Morris, among many others.

Avant-garde pioneer Yoko Ono, Gilbert & George, who famously proclaimed ‘Art for All’, Ben Vautier, key protagonist of the Fluxus movement, and legendary artist Elaine Sturtevant will join a new generation of artists such as Terence Koh, Hilary Koob-Sassen and Fritz Haeg to present their manifestos for the 21st century in this two-day ‘futurological congress’ in the park. The Marathon will also feature architects, including Andrea Branzi, Peter Cook, Charles Jencks, Claude Parent and Rem Koolhaas; scientists, writers and historians including the eminent Eric Hobsbawm; film directors including the legendary Agnès Varda; and philosophers, designers, and musicians including musical revolutionary Brian Eno. Vivienne Westwood’s manifesto Active Resistance to Propaganda will be presented by 26 performers and Marina Abramović will be accompanied by 14 performers.

This year’s Manifesto Marathon is the third in a series of Marathon events conceived by Hans Ulrich Obrist, Serpentine Gallery Co-director of Exhibitions and Programmes and Director of International Projects and follows the 2006 24-Hour Interview Marathon, created with Rem Koolhaas, and the 2007 Experiment Marathon, created with Olafur Eliasson. For more information about past Marathons click here.

SCHEDULE

SATURDAY 18 OCTOBER

From 12 noon:

Vivienne Westwood
Pier Vittorio Aureli
Hilary Koob-Sassen
Ingo Niermann and Zak Kyes
Elaine Sturtevant
Rasheed Araeen
Peter Cook
Taryn Simon
Richard Wentworth
Gilbert & George
Ben Vautier
Jonas Mekas
Jean-Jacques Lebel
Tom McCarthy
Mark Wallinger
Yoko Ono
Barbara Steveni
Ekaterina Degot
Raqs Media Collective
Nathaniel Mellors
Lee Scrivner
Andrea Branzi
Henry Flynt
Marina Abramović
Agnès Varda
Raqs media collective
Gilbert & George
Ben Vautier
Jonas Mekas
Jean-Jacques Lebel
Tom McCarthy
Mark Wallinger
Yoko Ono

10 pm:

End

Remote Participants

Christian Boltanski
Paul Chan
Yona Friedman
John Giorno
David Hockney
John Latham
Gustav Metzger
Yvonne Rainer
Jalal Toufic

SUNDAY 19 OCTOBER

From 10 am:

Manifesto Club
Susan Hefuna
Stephen Willats
Falke Pisano
Adam Pendleton
Claude Parent
Jimmie Durham
Nicolas Bourriaud
PLATFORM
The Otolith Group
Tino Sehgal and Hans Ulrich Obrist
Karl Holmqvist
Nick Laessing
Terence Koh
Stewart Home
Mark Titchner
K8 Hardy
Rem Koolhaas
Fritz Haeg
Charles Jencks
Eric Hobsbawm and Hans Ulrich Obrist
Athanasios Argianas
Silvia Kolbowski
SpRoUt
Brian Eno
Mark Aerial Waller and Giles Round

7 pm:

End

I'm DJ-ing on my first night back in London on September 4th! So come and see me if you're in the UK!

Fun Bands! Good music! and cute boys with hot hair! (I wish)

September 4th at The Old Blue Last, 39 Great Eastern Street!

The Things
Modernaire
The Shutes
Ex Lion Tamers
The Telegrams

Djs: Dave Wolfgang Bopp, Bitch Dulce & Martin Ape

I believe entrance is free so no excuse not to see me!

xxx

I've been feeling much today , thank you and sorry i've been impossible.

So the Dita Von Teese pictures I took are now all over the internet and i feel like a piece of turd.
No thanks to Bea Ablang who decided to swipe the pictures and put them on a global scale by posting them on ohnotheydidnt.
You fucking cunt. I will never forgive you.
Its really so sad because i had the greatest time ever and now these people probably think I was leaking them on purpose which i was not. I was just an excited fan who didn't realize the consequences of sharing her amazing experience with others .
Im so depressed and Im so embarrassed and i never meant any harm and i'm so pahiya not only to Dita's camp but also Tita Vicky and Quark and Cristalle who have so generously let me be a part of the experience.
Im so upset talaga. I really feel like shit.
Have you ever had that feeling where you let someone you completely admire down without meaning to?
Well I now feel it and I've been feeling it since yesterday and its not at all fun.
So Bea i wish you rot in hell and die.
And whoever sent it to perez i want to kill you too.

In the 90's i was such a huge fan of Beverly Hills 90210 (

So bad that as a 7th grader in Brent i had official merch (aka a 90210 hoodie with the whole cast on it, so dorky right) and was a member of the official BH 90210 fan club and got news letters and (mass produced) letters from the cast.

I was in LOVE with Jason Priestly

And therefore hated Gabrielle Carteris.

So i know its delayed (i never watch tv or read about entertainment) but HOLY!! I just saw on E that there is going to be a new Beverly Hills 90210 show in Sept!!!!!!!

And here's the trailer!

Hmmm parang walang cute except the teacher character ryan matthews, who isnt even THAT cute but hey, 90210 is 90210. and whats up with the token black guy!

Nothing beats the classic! Next thing you know may My So Called Life remake na din...

And with that, i am off to watch my 90210 dvds and reminisce....

this is so my favourite song of the moment!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=syntnHa-4JM&feature=related

love it love it love it (late but i love it!!)

And When you're holding me
We make a pair of parentheses
There's plenty space to encase
Whatever weird way my mind goes
I know ill be safe in these arms